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March has been a tough month both a home and at work. In life there are challenges we all face, some face more difficult challenges than others but no one person's challenge is more prominent than another's. All our difficulties are important and valued, at least that's how I feel about it.
There are so many things that can get me down. I've always been very affected by things and have often been told, "Don't let things affect you so much." or, "You can't control others so why let what they say or do affect you?". Well it does. I refuse to be made some sort of mockery of because I care so deeply about everything. I value that I have not yet become apathetic to the things in life that hurt people or that cause them joy and happiness. I will admit that my emotional investment in everything leaves me feeling tired and drained more often than not. I think about things constantly and obsess over what they mean. How do I find a balance between not losing my caring nature and letting myself get sick over things?
- I've tried ignoring it; no success. I simply don'e sleep in this case.
- I've tried pushing for things to be discussed and settled, no success. Not everyone required closure on things the way I do.
- I've tried pretending things don't affect me; no success. I fool myself that I've managed to get it right only to have the smallest thing like a line in a TV show (usually Grey's Anatomy or the Big Bang Theory) set it off and it all unravels.
- I've tried self-help books; no success. I feel they don't give practical ways to deal with the feelings and often make me feel like there is something wrong with me (I have enough of that in my life as it is).
I thought that by the time I was in my late twenties I would've found a way to deal with my feelings, my reactions, my panic, my stress, my need for closure... but I haven't. I go into my 27th year with the biggest personality glitch I have feeling the same way I've always felt about it.
Any and all advice welcome.
